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My heart's not as vacant as I say it is.
I avoid the touch of the sun because even that feels too heavy on my skin these days.
I blame these sleepless nights on insomnia, but I still can't be honest with myself.
It was when I noticed you occupied my thoughts that dread occupied my being.
And my heart's not as vacant as I say it is, but if I say it enough....
I told him I just didn't feel like anything anymore,
And he thought that meant I wanted him to fix me.
I don't tell him much anymore.
I'm picking at my words like they're last night's left-overs.
My stomach wants to throw out all its contents, but my guilty conscience won't let it.
And these days it's getting harder to look at myself.
Living quietly, I didn't know I could be swallowed by the shadows like this.
And these days it's getting harder to look like myself.
Silence is not the sanctuary I thought it to be;
Staring at stars while I'm stranded in the static.
It's not as romantic as it sounds.
My hands are sore like my throat is sore; I don't remember words being this heavy.
But maybe I've forgotten more than just that.
These words stomp around in my head and I get migraines.
And I just want to forget again why I even tried in the first place.
My body is sore.
I've never been afraid of the dark until
I couldn't breathe without forcing myself to.
I don't know why I wanted to feel empty when empty feels so lonely.
I avoid the touch of the sun because even that feels too heavy on my skin these days.
I blame these sleepless nights on insomnia, but I still can't be honest with myself.
It was when I noticed you occupied my thoughts that dread occupied my being.
And my heart's not as vacant as I say it is, but if I say it enough....
I told him I just didn't feel like anything anymore,
And he thought that meant I wanted him to fix me.
I don't tell him much anymore.
I'm picking at my words like they're last night's left-overs.
My stomach wants to throw out all its contents, but my guilty conscience won't let it.
And these days it's getting harder to look at myself.
Living quietly, I didn't know I could be swallowed by the shadows like this.
And these days it's getting harder to look like myself.
Silence is not the sanctuary I thought it to be;
Staring at stars while I'm stranded in the static.
It's not as romantic as it sounds.
My hands are sore like my throat is sore; I don't remember words being this heavy.
But maybe I've forgotten more than just that.
These words stomp around in my head and I get migraines.
And I just want to forget again why I even tried in the first place.
My body is sore.
I've never been afraid of the dark until
I couldn't breathe without forcing myself to.
I don't know why I wanted to feel empty when empty feels so lonely.
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Directory
Literature
consecrate
authenticity an arsenic
in morning coffee, in the smiles
pressed like ironed laundry,
because I feel like one wrong breath,
one wrong kiss between glossed lips and soft jaws
and I will be nailed to a cross
deception a shame rising like steam,
where teeth grind against each other
like clockwork gears, tick tick ticking
while the tongue kisses the roof of its cathedral
like a prayer to gods yet to be named
because her face is a mosaic window
shining the sin out of love
Literature
Heaviness
How did it
End up like
This?
Heaviness
Settling
Upon us
Weighing us
Down
Sucking our
Soul out of
Our bodies
Leaving
Only a trace
Of life once
Lived and
Now
Emptiness
Is building
Homes in
Our skin
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Lol, this is a big mess. Word vomit so I'm sorry if it's choppy and doesn't make much sense.
Also, does this title suit the poem?
Also, does this title suit the poem?
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i relate
it makes sense and the title fits very well
<3
it makes sense and the title fits very well
<3